Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, I know I did. Just being with the kids and Brad made me happy. I am grateful for another holiday with my family and becoming more and more encouraged that I am going to be around a lot longer.  This is a long healing process and I work on it internally all day, everyday. 

I had a ton of fun events and celebrations this season from parties, cookie exchanges, goofy grab bags, too much eating and drinking, family Christmas Eve and Christmas Day fun and my and Marleys birthdays! Phew! No wonder I am tired and fat!

Looking forward to chucking the desserts and starting fresh. I plan on no major surgeries or issues this year, so I will focus on not feeling so old and beat up! 

Merry Christmas!!! I love you all! 

My Little Girl is 10

10 years ago, my life changed...my angel was born. 10 years ago I didn't know I could love a second child as much as my first. 10 years has gone by so fast. I am grateful for my 10 years with Marley and plan to be celebrating a whole lot more with her.  Happy Birthday Baby!

Checking in

Well,I had another birthday and that is a great thing. I'm now 45-hopefully my mid life! Fingers crossed. I worry less on good days and still have to muster through days that are either physically or emotionally challenging. I rarely share much about either-pretty sure it's been enough for all. I do go to physical therapy twice a week still and am increasing my mobility. I have a fabulous PT, who works on my soft tissue for 45 minutes each time. That hands on is making a ton of difference.  I was on an antibiotic because I had some sinus issues-but the meds don't work. I went to my masseuse and she drained my Eustachian tubes. I felt great the next day-which was my birthday so it was good timing. I have some residual sinus stuff, I'll give it a few more days and need to see someone if it doesn't go away.  All my little aches and pains are scary. I've learned to ignore some but it scares me that I'm overlooking something bad. I can't imagine something bad happening again. I did my time. Now I get time, to be me. To enjoy birthdays and Christmas with my little family. That is the best gift I could ask for. 

Reasons to be Thankful

This was an eventful weekend with family in St.Louis! It will be remembered for sure! Here are the top ten things I was Thankful for:

1. Opportunity to spend Thanksgiving with relatives
2. Not being mugged and/or killed while running out of gas in East St.Louis-most dangerous city in the U.S.  When I Called the police instead of walking for gas/leaving me and kids in disabled car....not kidding. Always call the police. Don't listen to husbands with a death wish-and fill your tank!
3. #2 again
4. Warmer weather!
5. The City Museum without injury
6. BBQ
7. Cousins wedding with more family fun!
8. #2 again
9. Discovering new places, markets, restaurants, and tap rooms
10. Safe drive home.

Hoping everyone had a healthy and happy holiday. Onto Christmas! This weekend really did me in. I'm exhausted and have a sore neck, old age getting to me! I have no problem getting old, none. Always will be better than the alternative. Always.

Early THANKS

Well, the holiday season has begun! We had Pizzagiving with Brad's side this weekend as well as full blown, delicious Friendsgiving down the street! Today I had 12 hours at work for parent teacher conferences-long day! I do enjoy talking to the parents though.  

Last Friday I had an appointment with my oncologist for some follow up bloodwork. See, last month I had an over the normal range score on this cancer antigen blood test. They use these to see if certain whatevers are present and therefore often indicate cancer. So they said come back in four weeks and retake the test. Now normally I would have cried a few tears, been pathetic to Brad about all of it, but I didn't and I wasn't. I told pretty much nobody. I think two people knew. I didn't want to make it scarier for me. We even spent an entire weekend in Wisconsin and I never mentioned, not once. I'm making progress. Did I think about it-of course I did.  Was I scared-absolutely.

So Friday comes. I alreadyhad blood drawn on Wednesday. Nurse takes my resting heart rate of 128. Yep. A bit nervous. Then Doc comes in and asks me if I've been worried the whole time and I said of course! Then she tells me the number dropped way down and all my labs are perfect, no flags high or low! Whoo-hoo!!!  She gave me my holidays! I am not going into this season convinced it's my last one. I'm going in thinking positively. I see her again in March! Then if all has gone well, I'll have reached my two year mark which is milestone 1. Taking and living my life in chunks. It's not the easiest but it's my coping strategy. Thank you to all of my support group, each of you that keep me in your thoughts are a powerful tool in my healing. 

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers that I continue on the road to recovery and health. Happy Thanksgiving! Be thankful for everything, I am!

Hugs and love!!

A Sunday Post

Physical therapy seems to be helping me reach more mobility. The PT I have us a very smart and wonderfully nice gal, with very strong hands. She worked my soft tissue on Tuesday and by Wednesday morning I was bruised. She worked my shoulder blade on Thursday instead. Phew. November is turning out to be a very busy month, something just about everyday. Seems like the holiday season is early this year. Having snow accumulation doesn't help. 

I'm keeping positive thoughts and hoping for continuous health. Holidays make me sentimental and I don't want to be a basket case. Staying warm and positive-my goals. 

Checking In

It's been awhile but the less I post the better. I will not be tagged teamed by doctors as my plastic surgeon suggested.  My other surgeon said having surgery on my shoulder is a bad idea. Instead I am back in physical therapy. I went for the evaluation last week and start this this week on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  I have an early March date for the fat graft which will help with healing of scar tissue. Otherwise most things are good. I'm not going to blog about things I worry about today, because I'm working on pushing all those dark thoughts out of my head.  

Overall I've been very happy and having a great fall. Work is good, been up to cabin a couple times, Halloween was a blast, walked the Day of the Dead race, stayed in the city with girlfriends, hanging with the kids and there are a whole bunch of other fun things on the horizon. I'm going to keep positive thoughts to keep all bumps out of my road for smooth sailing. Be positive. I am.