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I was on a field trip today when I  got my lab results from the various biopsies they took during my scopes. Overall, the first line of the report is all I understood: all findings were benign, come back in five years. The rest was all this medical stuff I couldn't understand. I did filter out mild chronic gastritis. Not sure what that even is. I tried to read it on my phone but I was busy, haven't looked again because I don't want to yet. All I need to hear is that no cancer or bad stuff was found. I'm taking the meds the GI gave me, but not sure they're working. I have an ulcer and now this gastritis stipuff, that's got to be what is causing my dumb stomach issues. Or at least I still hope so. 

I'll be honest, it's scary. My life is scary. I can't explain it any other way. Every ache and pain or weirdness freaks me out. It sucks and I don't let it stop me, but I wish it wasn't like that. It's also very lonely because nobody understands. Okay, not nobody, few people understand.  Plus people don't want to hear about how you're scared, they don't.  People only want to really hear, " I'm fine."  I live a strange life.  This is a long haul marathon and I'm on an open road alone. 

I've been to a game every night this week and tonight's three hour baseball game got us home at 9:30! That's too late for dinner and too late for not being at home. Argh! We have games everyday for the next 8 days. 

I think brad is going to try to get my camper this weekend.  I sure hope his plan works.