Easing Back to Me

I love fall weather.  Jeans, long sleeves...a good reason to sit by a fire.  Fall is the best, and today was a beautiful weathered day.  For the most part it was a clean and putz around the house day, which was needed after yesterday.  Dane returned from his sleepover all tired out, expected.  We did some Halloween decorating, Marley and I that is.  Brad baked bread, we cleaned up a bit, then went to a neighborhood Oktoberfest.  I love parties when they are across the street from my house.  No driving, can go home if needed, all good.  We hung out there for a several hours, pretty chill.  A few lederhosen, steins and food.  I love my neighborhood and how awesome the people are, it is a great place to live.

Home now, not too late and getting kids ready for bed and another school week.  I think this week is a little less crazy and really starts a week with no new chemo in my system.  I am using positive thinking to get my energy back. I am ready.  After letting loose on that jerk coach, and having some low key social time...I am feeling like things can get back to my normal.  Sure I have only one week off before the next round of crap starts, so I want to enjoy it. I have even planned to go out on a date with my husband on Saturday and have Brad's mom come and hang out with the kids.  I think I want sushi.  Haven't had sushi since the night I found out I had cancer.  That was back in March.  I bet it will taste really, really good.  Or at least I hope I still like it.  I think so, nothing happened with my taste during treatment, dodged that side effect. 

Tomorrow also marks the start of my chemo weight loss program.  I shouldn't want to eat more and now I need to lose what I have gained, just in case the other drug does make me gain weight.  But like I said, I am going with the weight loss that the paper said, nowhere did it say weight gain was a concern.  Time for some good side effects for a change.  Plus, the mind is a powerful tool and I am going to stay positive. I told the nurses that when I see them in three weeks, I will have lost at least 5lbs.  I think that is a totally realistic goal.  Has to start tomorrow though, Karen made chocolate chip cookies...I had two... oh well :)