2014

Happy New Year!  This year must be better, I demand it! I will it to be better dammit... Anyway we spent the evening with several of our neighbors and way too many kiddos...jk. We played some games and I even left with a "spoons" battle wound. The parents were pooping out before the kids -so we celebrated NY New Years and went home.  As long as it is 2014 somewhere in the United States, we're good.

Woke up today with beautiful snow flittering around. A great start to the year. We rallied friends and organized a trip sledding with all the kids. We made a fire in the pavilion, had hot toddies and cocoa. A perfect winter afternoon.  I went up the ice covered hill once and sled down, but only once. I just cannot afford to hurt myself. I'm already pissed at how out if shape and weak I have become. I've never been like this and I am angry about it. I have always been strong with a lot of energy and stamina. I am not myself.  Another goal for this year.

I did not hear from scheduling an ultrasound. I will call early tomorrow to get it done by the weekend. I know I will feel better once they tell me all looks good. I still feel the oddness, yesterday was a little less, who knows. All I do know is last year was the year I was diagnosed and treated for BC. This year has nothjng to do with that. It's done. It's over. Moving forward. Positivity only.  Once back at work, there will only be 5-6 weeks before surgery. Is it weird to look forward to that?  It means progress. Progress is good. 

Happy New Years!