Rare

Raw meat. That's how I can describe my flesh...raw. Pink. Sore. Peeled...then burned some more....radiation treatment is undersold for pain. "It's a piece of cake"...they said... If you like to eat molten Siracha and glass cake... Sure you don't lose your hair, but how about the third degree burns? How about the constant pain of skin tightening and cracking open? Yeah, not my kind of cake! Even on my hardest chemo, I was down for one week and felt great for two...this is now constant 24/7 pain. "It's a breeze", my ass!

Okay, done with that rant. 

Finished my last treatment in the sorest of areas today. It felt like skin was going to bust open while treating. I had four days off and not getting in that position...wasn't easy today.   Last 5, concentrated along scar... However.. That area has also already had 28 treatments....guess what's going to hurt like a bitch next?  Can I cry now?

Went to reiki tonight. She took a long time and I was very relaxed. Grounded. I had a troubling phone call prior and that consumed half my brain and counter balanced my happy place thoughts.  It's progress, because last time I had reiki, my brain was like a squirrel on crack.

Tired now. That meditative, chakra aligning makes me tired. It also may be the fatigue from radiation (which I forgot about as a side effect until they asked), or  because I couldn't sleep until ten this morning.... Doesn't really matter, going to bed shortly.

Found 11 cents on the floor of Target, that's gotta be good right?